Grief

Today I got bored and typed random things into the search bar and for some reason I chose to type my brothers name in and I got so many results about his death and it made me really upset and I really wanted to go visit his grave today after school but I guess I'll do that Wednesday after school I cant due to practice tomorrow, it's been a hard time on me and everyone in Cleves life. Everytime I think about that damn day we fgot that phone call and I can feel the lump in my chest and I get the feeling I can't breathe and somethings just squeezing my heart and I just become numb...out of all the bad people who do evil things they stay on this earth and the good people are the ones who die.